ordinary people

It was few months back when i had emotionally drained, only my closest friend n my family(in particular my sister:P) . Thank god it wasn't that long that i manage to get myself back on track, as i wonder about for some inspirational, then along came a girl with a stunning beautiful smile that simply took my breath away, tsk cheesy as it may sound, but when i saw her for the first time, it is as if the time stop only my heart beat making the noise (like double paddle on drum set:P). Lucky enough i manage to get a short journey being with her, it was a wonderful feeling that beyond any words of description. I feel like I'm on top of the world.

Though we live in a totally different world, somehow we just connect. With her i learn to respect, loving her, being her close friend and a listener. There isn't a day that i miss not think of her, i have miss her dearly with that sweet voice calming me every time we spoke to each other. I've been longing towards the day that i could meet her again, its tough, its challenging, certainly its worth it without a doubt. Maybe we will survive, maybe we don't, for that i surrender on gods decision, what ever the outcome is, i hope i will get on top of this. (click on the article to listen a great song from john legend)

My story so far

After so many let down by most situation, i tend not to go against it, things may well happen for a reason indeed. Its easy to blame on situation where most of us are good at, i found rather funny, some wise dude having said that he is the best critic of himself, while he barely could take another people's opinion. I can say, I'm green about most working experience, therefore i need all the guidance that people can give, I'm very much open to any advice. It may well be hard to swallow, i may sometime get frustrated but i didn't get it over my head, normally before i went to bed i would re analyze the situation and take the positive out of it and apply it.

My family has been great, in terms of my needs, although financially its been a cracking head but nevertheless fun loving family is just i what i would cherish all my life, i remember when my parent attend to my football game which i use to be fanatic about the game, it was a friendly game, when i score, my mom actually was jumping for joy and in tears because she was proud to see that i actually score for that game. It was ridiculously funny but i was flattered with her emotion. Many time we argue over unnecessary or silly thing but parents will be parents, they just don't want to see their child at lost.

On my vocal, I'm really flattered with some of our local great such as tria aziz (a soulfully jazz and RNB singer) soon yoon (a fantastic Broadway singer) having faith with my vocal abilities, my confidence on singing is very low but to receive their compliment is such a bonus. I believe i could only get better with a proper training:P , i never knew i would enjoy as much singing as i would now, through friends experience of pushing me into the band, has brought me here, my liking towards singing actually grows even bigger.

Working on my music, with my band called Tainted Covenant. Its a 5 piece player, consist of ahbeng, adam, iriz, jone and me. we have successfully create 3 of our own which i believe we could add something for our music industry with our genre modern rock(at least john thinks that way:P). At the moment things are a bit on the rough side, as i somehow found myself in row with my lead guitarist, he is a perfectionist but fail to take others opinion with open mind especially from me, time will just heal everything, as what i can see in this band i may only have 2 option, either buck up or working my music else where.

Tainted Covenant, move to gigs pretty slow but we are getting there, since this band had form for about 4 months ago, we manage to have gigs at taylors, help, jaya one Halo cafe, and most recently jaya one for rantai merdeka event, my family came down on the event, i guess my dad want to see all the fuss that im trying to pull and prove to him that i can actually do this, cause he himself barely believe that i manage to won a battle of the band back in 2004 with my old band called Virtuoso(i miss jamming with those guys).

My love life its not all that great now, having ups n down, but i cherish every experience that i have, it was embarrassing with my stupidity that takes it toll, in the end the joke that i create were shared by my brothers in tainted covenant n my loving sister and of cause some of you out there, i vowed not to regret with what happen in the past, surely its an unforgettable event but hey that keeps me and my fellow mates happy:P and for sure i would do my best to avoid this silly mistake.


Its not too late for me to make this change for good, my prayers is to drive my family for better living, my brothers in tainted and of cause, to my lovely gal who ever she is out there, if you know who you are, my prayers is live and learn from the mistake and only look back as a reference :P